So many things have been placed on hold while I help my family navigate through some sad news. My grandmother seems to be moving towards advanced dementia, quickly and possibly suddenly (it’s hard to say for sure) combined with an acute depressive episode. Her independent living arrangements aren’t going to work for much longer. But, worst of all, she is crying all the time, horribly confused all the time, forgetting almost everything short term, worrying about everything….

To those who’ve been through similar experiences, you’ll know this is no exaggeration. IT’s very difficult to see her so upset and distressed, and being unable to make it stop. Sure I can help temporarily and sometimes, but I just wish I could make her feel better.

Apparently we now just wait for the condition to progress and she can reach a point of happiness - where she doesn’t know what’s going on. The occasional lucidity means she’s now frightened and occasionally aware that things are changing around her. It’s a horrible thing to wish for, but I just want some mercy for her. And for her sadness to go away.

She’ll be OK. We’ll be OK.
(Sigh)